I earned this curse...

Hi peeps,

I know it has been more then a week since I last posted something. So in the midst of my busy schedule, I have decided to write on "fitness". Yes, I am in fact a fitness maniac. The reason I have decided to dedicate today's topic on fitness is because I've recently come across a few people that has had there self-esteem totally crushed by the word fat. So hopefully this will be able to help some people they can relate to this.

Society is nasty. Everyone has become so superficial. I feel that just way too females are trying to get into the smallest dress sizes all for the wrong reasons. Do not change because your afraid that people will not like you for your waist size. You are beautiful the way you are but if you want to change, you have to do it for yourself. If not, you'll just end up like some of the people out there who only talks about changing. 

Let's begin with today's topic which I titled "I earned this curse". Everybody think's that I have some god given metabolism. I am the envy of all females and for those who are trying there so called "best" to lose inches of there waist. Previously, I use to weigh 49kgs at 171cm. Yes, I could fit into female SKINNY jeans and I probably had a pair of sexy legs. The reality of it is that at the point in time, I seriously did not eat much and it was definitely not because I had some god-like metabolism. When I think back, I really only ate 1-2 meals a day. I guess I was always a little too lazy to eat and being skinny didn't really bother me.

This practically carried on until the third year of Polytechnic when I thought that I seriously needed to do something about myself. The glass was always half empty to me due to a shit load of problems at home. I guess this is where the journey started for me. I finally got myself too the gym and till date, I have yet to stop. I was pretty lucky because my dragon boat friend was really into fitness, so he would practically drag me to train with him. It was torture and there was countless times where I vomited from exerting myself. Everyday I felt like quitting but as days went on, the mirror started showing changes. I have never believed in the weighing scale, it always lies. But there is some science behind it, which I will explain later. 

The more I workout the more I get to eat. Metabolism is something you EARN and it only gets (I dont think this is a word but heck) higher with more muscle you put on. For females, you need to get of your high horse because you do not even have to worry that you will get too bulky. Your female anatomy is not designed to get bulky. Just google Katie Chung Hua and that's probably as "Big" as your going to get if you spend 7 days a week training with a proper program and going on a very very STRICT diet over a few YEARS. Which we all know that it is impossible to do with our hectic lifestyle. So what you'll end up with if your committed is probably a person with sexy figure. 

What did I get for the years of training.. A CURSE that many will envy. Now I've come to a point where it is generally quite hard for me to put on any more weight. I literally get to eat anything I want and not worry about having to put on weight (follow my instagram @teryyaki to find out more). Though I highly recommended not eating junk, I tend to feel a little sloppier when I do. But again, due to time constraint, sometimes Macdonalds serves as a alternative too clock my daily calorie requirement. THAT'S RIGHT, I HAVE TO FORCE MYSELF TO EAT MAINTAIN MY CURRENT WEIGHT! I do not do this for a living, so it is just that much harder for me to commit myself with my current responsibilities. This is not an excuse I'm giving myself but rather fitness is a life long journey and it may not be now but someday I will get to where I want to be. Here's how I look like when I was 60kgs last year (Now I'm 65kg aiming for 68kg):

You don't really need many supplements when your just aiming to lose weight. Just take a protein shake to help you recover from your workout. And let's get this right, PROTEIN shake only has 160 calories, it will not make you fat in anyway possible unless your in a calorie surplus, which is most probably caused by the other junk you eat. FATS cannot turn into Muscle.. Muscle cannot turn into FATS.. It is scientifically impossible..

But here's a list of the current supplements I am consuming (A picture is on my IG):
Dymatize Weight Gainer
BNS Syntha-6 (Protein Blent)
Vitmains C
Fish Oils
Body Octane (Pre-workout)
Creatine

The biggest change you will experience is how you feel. You will be able to focus better on your day to day activities. You will most definitely be healthier as you become more conscious of what you are eating and lastly you will be more connected Spiritually, Body and Mind (#SwoldierNation). So what are you waiting for? But don't expect instant results.. You know what they say, easy come easy go.. Make small goals, take small steps.. Prepare yourself mentally cause once you can get over that mental barrier and make things a habit. Everything else just falls in place.

Anyways so why does the weighing scale lie? Our weight can be affected by so many ways. Say you've been on a diet for a week. As part of your daily routine, you hop on the weighing scale early in the morning. Then today you decide to satisfy all your cravings because well it's been a week since you tasted anything so good. The next morning you wake up, hop on the weighing scale and discovered that you put on 2kgs. Of course, your not going to feel motivated because you are going to feel that you've just put in all that effort for NOTHING! But the reality is that the 2kgs you put on is temporary. When you eat lots of junk, you body stores more "glycogen" (energy) from the excess sugar and the increase of salty foods (Sodium) will lead to an increase in water retention. So seeing an increase of 2kgs shouldn't be all too surprising that is why trainers do not really recommended a "cheat day" because it messes with your mind. Moral of the story? Don't cheat while your still in progress, cheat once you have made progress.

Disclaimer: I am not a certified personal trainer or a nutritionist. All information provided was based on my 4 years worth of searching the internet and experimenting with different training programs and diets.

I'll post some workouts the next round for both genders... Though there's a lot info on the internet, I'm just helping out filter out some of the stuff.. Try everything for 2-6 weeks, document changes to track how the diet/training is doing for you.. Welcome to FITNESS!

Powerful message

Nothing more beautiful than people that actually love themselves. There are far too many times we are put through situations that bring us through an emotional roller coaster be it from family, friends, relationships. But in the most painful moments, take a step back. Breath and know that this is just one step to being someone even better.

Your life gives you the greatest gift. Everyday your life gives you 86400 seconds. It's up to you how you want to use it. But if you waste it, none of those seconds are going to come back. Live life to the fullest. Let your tears be the happy moments in life and never let anyone hold you back from being someone that deserves to be happy.

 

The Good Guy

I decided to get back to blogging. It's been a while with School and stuff. I promise to blog at least once a week to my few readers. Stay Tunneeddd.

Today's topic will be my take on the whole good guy/bad guy issue that has been going ever since dating has become westernised. There are many victims when it comes to courtship. From the guy's perspective, the current "myth" is that women like the bad boys, yet when they get their heart's broken, they start to say things like "how come all the people treat me this way". Being guys, there is practically no sympathy because we feel they deserve it. I think many people can relate to this. Then there's the females perspective, after being a victim of abuse (emotionally), the world is suddenly filled with only bad guys. 

Does it really exist? Yes, it does. However, it is in substance different to how people see it. Fundamentally, the definition for both genders are different.

So what are guys definition of the Good guy? Someone that treats women as there first priority. (simplified). This is probably the same thing that girls will tell most people. However, as the saying goes, ask a women what she wants and she will tell you what she needs but not what she wants. 

Women are attracted to males that they think are high-in demand. In other words, subconsciously they are more emotionally attached to someone that doesn't always treat them as there first priority. Who are the people that are able to do this? Yes, they are the so called Bad guys. These guys know how to play with the right balance of the female emotions to make females go crazy over them. Aggressive yet subtle. Sweet but not to sweet. That's why the beginning is always so fun, then it starts to slowly get bitter in the middle, before coming to a point where it is hard to let go. It is rare to see a person transit from Good to Bad, usually they're just all "bad" covered with "good" skin.  

This "skill-set" is usually obtained with a wealth of experience, yet it is there final intent that causes the greatest devastation. Not many people actually use these tools to find the "life-long partner" but rather it all becomes just a simple game to them. Guys tell guys everything and that includes bragging when they cheat. However, it is the complete opposite for females. 

In life, you meet so many people yet only attracted to a few. There are good guys everywhere but that's really not what they want and somehow this contradiction causes much frustration to the people who consider themselves real "Good guys". They somehow feel so unjust, but to me, they are just a bunch of "sore losers". People that choose to live in self pity for not having the spirit to fight for who they want to be with. People that come up with 50 different scenarios when it is just a simple yes or no.

I wanted to write more, but i'll add on in another post cause it's nearly 4am and I'm really tired. Good night peeps! Till next time.

I will now officially refer to this blog as a dairy for myself.

Today was a tiring, life questioning day. Then a friend calls me.

Friend: Eh Terrance we are still friends right?
Me: No, WTF you want.
Friend: Eh Terrance we are still friends right?
Me: What you want?
Friend: Support me buy tickets lei!
Me: Burst out laughing..!

Haven't been doing much lately except for projects. I can help but always complain about school, the people sucks, the work sucks, the course sucks and I practically have no motivation to continue except not to disappoint my dear friends. But since society requires me to get a degree, I will go get the FUCKING degree.

I starting to hate it when people tell me they are mature when they are really not. Honestly, if your mature you won't even need to mention it. Maturity is something that other people judge, based on their impression of you. Therefore, you can't say that your mature because you are unable to see how you project your 'maturity' on to others. Same goes for being materialistic, sensitive and shit like that. If you ever need a person to give you an honest opinion of anything about yourself, I'll give you it straight up. I have never 'babied' my good friends and will always continue to tell them what the need to hear and definitely not what they want to hear.

That's all folks.

P.S Instagram makes everything look better then it really is...

A break from thinking about my assignment..

Hi Peeps,

Haven't blogged in a while because I have been a tad busy with school work and I practically fell sick for like a week or so. I missed more then a few gym sessions as I've been preoccupied and a little disorganized. Another reason is I've been reminded about certain periods in what some of my friends describe as a very complicated, roller coaster life. I don't really tell many people about my problems for a number of reasons but for those that do know, I'm particularly grateful for everything. In a environment where everyone is so 'results' driven, there is not much room for anything else. The number of genuine people decreases as I progress on in my life and I guess being in university only spells it out more clearly. But who can blame them, for society has progressed in such a way.

Recently more and more friends are having problems, as a friend it feels kind of sad to not be able to be there for them. I really wish I could do more for everyone, but in my situations its a little hard. Especially to the one that just suddenly disappeared. Please know that your not alone and even though you do not wish to reply to the people that cares for you, I hope you are doing well.


Back to assignments, I will try to blog more often.

Some weird experiences..

In some distant reality far far away, the following happened. I was out to meet a girl that I met online from a applications called Skout. Half way through the outing 4 guys came along. I was little like "WTF" but I continued on. The guys spent their time pampering the girl as we were on our journey to find a rubber chicken.

Suddenly throughout the adventure, the girl burst out in tears. I was little stunned, but knowing me I was practically laughing my ass off. Then this ugly looking guy, turned around and asked me why I'm laughing. I told him sorry, I need to head to the toilet. After that, I just ran away. It was probably the fastest 500m dash I ever did. No joke, I was practically panting.

A couple of days ago, a friend of mine bought me something........

#True Story

The application Skout was introduced to me by a friend during our NS. We used to solely to show off how many girls replied to us. Later on, I used the application with another friend to do some research for a social network club that never got started. Now? I have stopped using the application when school started but I recently used the application while I was killing time in reservist. Besides that I have always been curious about the female mind. They are intriguing yet frustrating at the same time. The more your try to understand them, the more you really don't know anything about them. So I've continued to pursue my mission to comprehend the female mind.

In Skout, I guess I chatted with tonnes of people. Initially I opened by chat up for both men and women, cause I wanted to know a variety of people. Well my friends, that was a big mistake. Considering I received so many messages from Gay dudes asking me for all sort's of shit. Besides that I can honestly categorize them into 3 types of people. To encourage my not so many readers to try the application I will not tell you what type they are. However, you should try it to expand your social skills a little.

Now I must warn you, inside the application is place filled with players that have been playing the game for a long period of time. So try not to get you feelings involved. The place is for you to flirt/chat your way to a new level. If your lucky you might meet a few genuine people. But even they are no saints.

Terry C.

Not a good day.

Fucking pissed off day,

As usual today I'll start of with what happens at the gym. If one thing i learnt, that is to never wear a non-stretchy t-shirt while you gym. Because afterwards, you can't take the fucking shirt off. Especially when I had an appointment afterwards. I was fucking stuck in the toilet for like 15minutes waiting for my muscles to lose it's tension and even after all that ordeal, it still look me a while to take it off. I basically jumped around the toilet to get the t-shirt off. Luckily for me the gym was pretty empty today.

Sometimes I really don't know how someone earning 10 times my allowance ask to borrow money from a student. Fucking pisses me off cause it always happens. Which leads to the second topic on what I think about relationships. I think the key to a successful relationship is communication and respect for each other. If you don't have both I think it's time you leave. Don't ever suffer in silence or think you can change someone, when you really can't.

After you have been with someone for so long, it's natural that the relationship starts to dull. Married or not is the same thing. So communicate! Always ask about how you can spice things up. Think of ways to reinvent the time you spend together. Make effort to want to progress, want to improve, want to continue to love that someone. If you always continue to doubt, keep on having to worry, have no respect for your partner then there is no fucking point in being together. The pain of letting go is so worth it for a better life.

Next issue, I'll be posting some of my experiences with some people I met online...